No one seems to notice
They only shrug they shoulders
And go about business as normal
Their ordinary rapport but
I'm spiraling in a downward
Cycle like the toilet bowl
My s### disposable to most
Decompose and erode
They too hard nosed to notice
It's no-ones fault but my own,
I dig my own hole
It's time to climb out and smell the roses
An indifferent individual
With limited dividends
Hanging by a thread
Swallowed by the corporate Leviathan
Sick of admiring the rich and famous
While we sit in anguish
Can't go against the grain
Bang your head against the pavement.
Count my blessings yes
Also can't help but count rejections
All the oppression and destress
Built up like bad credit
I’m sick of asking for help
Sick of not being able to get it
Sick of empty sentiments
Just layering on like sediment
Sick and tired
Of being sick and tired
These mick and mire for hire doctors
Wish they’d quit and retire
Like politicians making decisions
That conflict with their own conditions
The only prescription that does anything
No signature required with it.
Can’t intermingle
Who are my own people
Relate to those who struggle
Forget color, race, or gene pools
We equal, get swindle
By a few in collusion
Who've been doing the screwing since
Soon after the constitution writ
"Do your due diligence, get you due"
They said, they full of it
That’s restricted
For specific silver spooner kids
Who complain at non consumers
Like we've got something to give
For useless frivolousness
It's true disillusionment
Pay fair wages
Don't just wage war
Doomsday rakes ruins
Man get what you paid for
Societies stay polluted these days.
Took a small knee high
Meek-minded naive tyke
Tossed him head
Over heel over hilt over hide
Never mind, mind over matter
You succeed on their terms
They teach what they learned
Drops out the tree face first
Acorn scorned
Right in s### to harvest
Don’t have to be the smartest
Often discouraged regardless
As long as you can follow orders
No worries, you'll resurface
And further spread the turds
Of the surplus disservice.
I'm A Menace to Humanity
Man hand me a decree
With a stamp of declaration
I'm the chancellor in chief
I'm the man to see, the man to be
Man I look like a manatee
Mismanaging mankind
to a mammoth degree
Man I am king
Of the single greatest nation
All in favor say aye
All opposed may die.
Either way, hey we all may die...
I do follow protocol
Until I’m bottomed out
And worse off than before
Tossed off forgot about
Caught in rocks and hard places
Can’t save face like Murdock
I’m the d-team squad
A reserves spot third-opt
More cons then pros
More pain than joy
Now my whole brain void
Funked like soul train noise
The welfare tides rise
And we pay the price
Ya'll lie at the top
As 90% dies
We drown, you're fine
That's economic prowess
It’s hard to swallow
Or stay afloat among the imbalance.
If my tears could talk
Maybe they could find the words
Maybe they’ll strike a nerve
With another soul and be heard, the hurt
If yours could talk too
What could I learn?
Underneath the curse of fear
Unworthiness we endure
We could be miracle workers
If we just believe
The love we share with the universe
And all of its beings
The harmony of another
Feel hearts beating free
Because it’s beating in sync
Only an open heart can receive
Anything the heart can conceive
Because all you want is peace
Generosity
Understanding honesty, honestly
If my tears could talk
It’s because of my fear not to speak,
Interwoven with all pain
Only together we break free.
I know loneliness, Being estranged
Refraining to strange silence, With so much you’d like to say
I know withholding emotions, Though I feel them so immensely
Letting things go, Though I know I struggle feeling empty
I know true pain, Without any physical strain
Yet physical pain, nonetheless, that no stretch alleviates
I know what it’s like laying awake at night
Praying everything may change
I know anger, I know rage, I know guilt, I know shame
I know what it’s like when I don’t know why
I feel a certain way
To go searching for meaning, Knowing I’ll end up back in the same place
I know taking the wrong advice, I know it’s myself to blame
I know medication, I know intoxication
I know filling the wrong prescription, By the wrong consultation
With unwanted results, I know drug addiction, Self infliction
I know slipping up again and again, And I can’t fix it
And I sure as shit know judgement, From people who’ve never lived it
When I ask for help, Knowing I’m worse off for insisting
When I want someone to care, But I’m not worth the commitment
I know my instability, I know what it’s like when no one listens
When I have no place to go, So I end up sitting
At the dock of the bay, Watching the tide drifting
Knowing nothing may come my way, But what’s the difference
Since I know if I had everything now
It won’t replace whatever’s missing.
But I also know love, When I see someone struggle
I know how to shed my own bubble, To show someone comfort
I know compassion and forgiveness, Understanding and assistance
I can give up my strong opinions, To acknowledge someone different
I know when I look at a person, I hope that they’re truly happy
They don’t always have to be, If only when it truly matters to be
I know when it’s someone else’s moment, And they deserve to have it
Because I know when someone is at their best, We become magnets
When we see something magical, I know it when it happens
When we’re no longer individuals, We’ve become bigger than that sense
I know what I know, I know hope is spiritual
There’s music in the air, I know you can hear it too.
Thank you.