I'm sick of advice
Especially when the giver is mine own
Like I have the right
Self righteously blindfold
Myself with selfish pride
Against what I find identifies
As a minor slight
An offense exemplified
Misanalysed regrettably
I recognize, apologize
Try to resolve my hollow spite
An amoral bind
I'm misunderstood
Or maybe I misunderstand
When I put my foot in my mouth
Instead of lend one a hand
Decide others woulds and shoulds
Without being put
Afoot in their reality
All my putdowns are true fallacies
The nerve or grounds, to serve around
My personal concerns
Is so impersonal
Shows no backbone or vertebra
That happens when this cloud
Of outcast self-doubt
Powerlessness
Is the foundation throughout
Structure becomes a house of cards
Shaking, swaying just waiting
That it is in fact safe
With shameless validating
My unstable ways
I didn't build them solitarily
But socially, culturally
Environmentally ill-conceived
But mindfully through readjustment
With beams and sheetrock
Maybe I'll remain upright
With others to lean on.
Living frantically
Trying to manage my manic need
To keep up fantasies
American dream vanity
I keep what can't be seen
My damaged seams
If I don't show that skin
It may vanish like tannery
But blending in instead leads
To panicking
To every candid happenstance
Against my planned conceit
In reality
Living concealed is insanity
Being human comes with wounds
Accrued from the usual calamity
No ones immune don't refute it
It's mutually earned
Yourself and others
Hard truths are duly discovered
Bruised and battered
You move forward
To get through the dust storm to cover
Until other tribulations emerge
Learn to fail or fail to learn
Wear scars like brail to interpret
Your hurts
Each one reads that courage occurred.
The ancestor to action
is intention
Collection of willingness
Optimism, and reverence
Ones sense of self in reference
To connection
Acceptance to the world
It really in't against us
Theres no preemptive malevolence
Except the misperception
of fears invented
Apprehension instead of essence
Of wherever our heart is destined
When we pressure and force variables
It only takes a toll on our own
Coronary arteriole
Tearing holes in flow
We don't know the endgame
For us to impede what we fear
May be impending
That's insane
Each day is a sensei to teach us
Heed the struggle and tedium
Continually meet each with love
Forgive yourself
For you live with yourself
Dismiss past tenseness
And live for the now
You have a perfectly
Permissive disposition
Exquisite distinction
Individuality to fulfill in an instant
Start to tell your heroes tale
With your past avails to
Passages to brave passed
Himalayas to scale
Castaway at seas to sail
Gail force breeze wails
Unyielding terrain
Unequal travail
Blazing desert plains
Hypothermic glacial nights
Accolades amass at you lap
With each flag, each sight
You keep riding
Knightly dragons slain
Castles made and break the same
As you blaze with no blazon displayed
Anomalous you remain
Stardust rebond
You belong across the sky
You've already come so far.
We don't know our own strength
The toll we take
From toes, legs, torso
Abdo, throat, face
The whole framework overstrained
Over-paced behavior
Whole array misshapen
Til it erodes away
Slowly frayed, flayed daily
From greed and shame
We retain
Each bait we proceed to take
Facebook, tweets, dm's
Social media snakes
Can leave a cheap
Fleeting remark a screen away
Harming the cohesion
Our weave like yarn texture
Our coat of arms tears apart
Like polyester
Mustn't fester
Over the sorry folly of others
The effort to judge
Is much easier than to serve
So rest assured
And set forth the steps towards
Your bettering incrementally
Beckon those against that course.
Why do we force the course,
Of source, performing "reformance",
Against the forms of nature,
Natural organisms,
Transforming terraform,
Our born worldly existence,
Insistent on controlling it,
As if it's opposition,
Consistent resistance is causing us,
Chronic sickness,
Dismissing authentic growth,
Oblivious to it's ripple effects,
It'll be a bitter pill instilled,
When it comes time for swallowing,
Our life energy starved,
From gobbling up with gluttony,
We'll swallow it like arsenic,
Poison, toxic biotics,
What it causes,
Honestly we're probably already absorbing,
Absolving all of us,
We got the disease of disregard,
The earth wants us,
To be a part of it in all of it's art,
Heartily we must accept,
Our connection,
Acknowledging our extension,
And pledge to better our collective residence.
Allow what is sown to grow
The fertile seeds to sprout
To sturdy trees flourishing
On the forest surface throughout
Shedding offspring on the ground
For chipsmunks and squirrels to prowl
And spread around
And burrow where the sun sheds down
Against pockets of mountain pine
White oak, striped maples
Climbing with quiet determination
The heights they are able
To find day light
In their wake make shelter for critters
Vertebrates, birds and insects
Catepillers hatch to flitter
In color, a subtle beauty
Becoming truly enticing
In every nook and cranny hiding
The canopy is so inviting
Let it strive.
Why do we believe our ego so?
It sneaks in, reaches, seizing a deep hold
When we feel low and oh so vulnerable
To believe we are sheep concealed in wolves clothes
We're only deceiving ourselves
Our hell is our own making
That we create to keep at bay
From the traits we deem forsaking
A tall tale from a small frail
Part of us
That was once in arduous hardship
But honestly isn't the heart of us
We are love
Like artemis we must guard and protect
Our innocent marvelment
Before impressionable judgements scarred them
And hardened our skin like marble
What's wrong with being unremarkable
With open arms, in all that we go through
To remain modest is honorable.
We're still tilting at windmills
For the thrills it rekindles
Acting from will, attacking at will
The hilt reveals the willful
Without it victimhood
Fear materializes
This fear of deprivement
This us or them mindset
If not triumphant I'm nothing
I can't live without the gumption
The harvest is my bounty
Without I become stunted
A runt scrounging
While they exceed and outreach
Without me, I must release cowardice
Unsheath and joust steel
Mount my steed for honor,
Democracy and valor
Against hyprocrisy, can't you see
Pronounce, avow you serfs
Usurpers, I'm the rightful colonel
Your service falls in accordance
Divide and conquer over the course
Of history I'll be rejoiced in
With boisterous applause
Marble carvings hoisted along
The roads I've tarred
Paved with blood sweat and heart
When it's all said and done
And I've become omnipotent
Above all else
At all others hinderance
It may finally dawn on me
My own inferiority complex
Lead to encompassing conflict
And I'm left still uncontent
All I had to do was self-accept.
Got to negate the case
To chase what I'm capable of
Whats attainable
Straining worst case scenario
Hysteria
Best case expectations
Is just a waste as well
Imagination does not straight foretell
I'll navigate the netscape
Gladly stake henceforth
Furthermore with contentment
More important than moving towards
Success or prevention
No pretending, no exceptions
No head held intention
Of excellence or less then
Just moving in the direction
Of reverence and ethics
Lament pretensions
Need no end to begin.
To Be Frank: 